i’m not happy

i should be, everything is how i wanted it to be  a year ago. i have everything i wished for. but im just not happy. and i don’t know what to do about it.

i feel like i can’t even talk to anyone about this

you’d all judge me, and be like what the hell is wrong with you? because everything thinks its so cute and perfect. but sometimes, i just need someone to listen.

I’m so tired of this

I’m tired of hearing all these stories about you, and how horrible of a person you are. It’s a disgrace. I’m tired of hearing how great of a child you are, and how well behaved you are. And I’m also tired of hearing of how horrible of a child I am, and how I am always on the one causing all the problems. Honestly, if only they knew what you do. If they knew actually that you are the horrible child, and that you are the fuck-up. Because I’m tired of being mistaken for that.

This isn’t the only thing I’m tired of either.

I’m tired of hearing about this all the time. I understand it’s hard for you, and that you are stressed. But let it go. You aren’t making it any easier for the rest of us by throwing a pity party for yourself. You don’t realize how stressed you are making me, seeing you like this. I’m not stupid, and I know how bad this is. But I need you to get up from this, and start over. Just move on. I need you to go and look as hard as you can to find what you are looking for. I can’t keep seeing you like this, and hearing about all the problems we are going to have in the near future, because I am about at my breaking point. 

I need to get out of here, I need to get away. I can’t handle this anymore.I’m.so.done.